I have a confession to make.
I am a book worm. I can't help it, I've always loved books and I can never seem to get enough of them. My family thought I was adopted for a long time because I preferred to stay in the house all day reading instead of going outside, hanging out with neighbor kids, eating and especially sleeping. To this day, I still cannot put a good novel down just because it's three in the morning and I occasionally lose consciousness, only to be jolted awake by the book falling heavily on my face.
My husband, being the good man that he is, lets me indulge in my reading and does his best not to be put out by my lack of interest in anything else, except for Jackson. He is a very good little man and is quite happy with playing on the floor or in his exersaucer or walker, but he's just so cute in his everyday playfulness that most of the time I drop everything I'm doing and play with him. It's just so fun! :)
Anyway, at the end of June, Davy took our ancient cell phones to T-Mobile and traded up for the amazing phone I have now. I never really wanted a "smart" phone because all I ever did on the other phone was make and recieve calls and text with the occasional ringtone download. It wasn't until mid-July when I discovered a BOOK READER ON MY PHONE. I was amazed that I didn't have to go buy an expensive Kindle just to quench my thirst for more books. Not to mention, this particular application is FREE with FREE book downloads. However, I'm not sure of the legalities of this application. Sometimes I feel guilty about not compensating the wonderful authors of the books in some way. I wish it wasn't so easy for technology to make the written and printed word seem so expensive and unnecessary. Maybe I'll have to look up copyright laws and decide whether or not to keep my book reader. For now, it seems that I can't do without it.
A while ago, I was reading a blog and I want to copy her idea. This is also inspired from the MTV show "If You Really Knew Me":
9 Things Most People Don't Know About Me
1: I was diagnosed with scoliosis at the age of 8. I was in third grade and I was terrified of what the other kids would think about my hideous back brace and the clothing I had to wear to conceal it. Mostly, I was treated with respect and sometimes pity. I actually had quite a few friends who would have stood up for me if I had been put down at all. In between 7th and 8th grade, after wearing a brace for almost five years, I had to have spine surgery. I did and I am now a mother, something that would have never been possible without that surgery. I am thankful everyday for my parents and Shriners Hospital.
2: I cringe whenever I hear paper sliding on other paper. Even thinking about it is setting my teeth on edge. Ugh. If I hear this noise, I imagine putting the paper in my mouth and the texture of it on my teeth makes me sick. Not that I ever put paper in my mouth, but I can't help imagining it. I know, I am so weird.
3: I didn't want to get married until I finished college and after I was married I didn't want kids for a long time. Obviously, that didn't happen, but I am so happy it didn't. I cannot imagine being anything but a wife and mommy.
4:You know that strange paper thing I mentioned before? Well, I have that same problem with ice. I get the chills even thinking about putting an ice cube in my mouth. Is this normal? I've never asked anyone else if they have ever felt this before, so I don't know, haha.
5: I don't particularly like camping, hunting or going for scenic drives. I would much rather read a book while traveling than see the "views". And if I'm outside on a nice day (which is rare) I have to have a book with me to keep me occupied. We have lived in our house almost a year and I don't think I've even spent even an hour in our yard. I just don't like being outside. My poor husband is the opposite of me in all of these things: he hates reading, he loves scenic drives, and hunting and camping.
6: The 24, 29, 30 and 31 of every month are always my favorite. Here's why: Davy asked me to be his girlfriend December 24, 2005 and I said "Yes". October 30, 2007 he proposed and I said "YES"! May 29, 2008 we were sealed for time an all eternity in the SLC temple and once again I said "Yes". May 31st, 2008 we celebrated at our reception with all of the friends and family members that couldn't make it to our wedding, what a great day! On December 29th, 2009, after a particularly forceful kicking, elbowing and jabbing from the little boy in my tummy, my water broke. Finally, on December 30, 2009 our baby boy was born after a hard, 23 hour labor. He is the best thing that I have ever been blessed with.
7: Having had a boy already, I can't imagine having a girl now. It's been this way ever since the ultrasound where we found out we were having a boy. When Davy and I talk about having another baby (not in the near future, don't worry) we can only think about a boy and what his name will be. I want a baby girl, but a baby boy just seems so much more tangible because I already have one.
8: The President of the United States of America almost made me late getting to my wedding. He was in Salt Lake City visiting with the Prophet of our church and there were government vehicles and agents all over temple square. I was so upset about him being there and making me late that I actually threatened to assassinate him if I missed my wedding because his stupid government cars were clogging up the road. Davy hastily told me to be quiet because I was saying this as we were crossing the road to get to the temple and there were secret service agents looking at me suspiciously. I am glad, however, that the President was there so that I have a unique story to tell my children and family.
9: I was a tom-boy all through elementary school and even before that. *Gasp* I know, it's hard to believe, right? My favorite color now is pink and I hate the outdoors and mud and bugs. But growing up in a neighborhood full of boys and with a little brother, I had to make myself more like them in order to have friends. At school I had girl friends and during recess we would all go and sit and talk. But as soon as I got home and those boys came over to our house, I was all about ninja turtles, dirt, mud, bugs, snakes, frogs, superheroes and bad guys, cowboys and indians and dinosaurs.
I wanted to write these "confessions" about myself because sometimes I think we forget or take for granted where we came from. We don't appreciate all that we have had in the past and all of the blessings that Heavenly Father gives us every day. I also think it is good, sometimes, to walk in others' shoes before you make a hasty judgment. You never know what another person has been through to make them the way that they are.
"I know that God will not give me anything I can't handle. I just wish that He didn't trust me so much". (Mother Teresa) I love that quote. Every day it is becoming more true to me. I have so many responsibilities with barely any time for myself. At the same time, I am so blessed with these things that they are so worth it.
"Come what may and love it" (Elder Joseph B. Wirthlin) Recently, a few friends and family members of mine have gone through miscarriages and have been dealing with infertility. Every time I hear of someone else going through these losses I cry. It is so unfair that people who aren't ready financially or mentally get to pop out a baby every nine months when women who would be wonderful mothers in every aspect are infertile or have to suffer the loss of miscarriages. To those of you who are living with this, I wish that I could share my fertility and fantastic pregnancy. I love you and I know that Heavenly Father will let you be a mom someday.
This week has been really rough for me. Nothing particularly bad has happened to me or my family, but I have just been feeling really down. After talking with my sister and mulling things over in my head, I am feeling much better. I rely on Heavenly Father and my family to help me through anything and I am so glad to have them. Writing this blog has been really therapeutic because I can get some of my thoughts out of my head. I'm sorry for my rambling and if I have bored anyone :)
We had family pictures taken a few weeks ago so I am expecting them sometime soon and when I do I will be sure to post them on here to show off. Until then, "Come what may and love it".
Nicholya
