Be ... Happy?

You know the part during your wedding vows where you are asked to promise "for better or worse, in rich and in poor"? Well, we've been living with the "worse" and the "poor" for a while now. It's been tough at the Crockett residence. Sometimes I'm in sheer panic mode where I don't know what to do and how to cope with things, other days I lose myself in just trying to be happy with all the things in my life that are right.

This post isn't about all of my woes and hardships. This is about finding happiness when it seems like there is none to be found. The little things like chasing Jackson around the house and making him giggle like a maniac. The little (big) things like the fact that we now have health insurance (YES!) and it's not going to cost us all that much(even better). The little things like being able to kiss my husband every day and know that he's safe. The fact that despite working 40+ hours between two jobs, I get to spend every single morning with my son, just me and him.

About 2 months ago, I was searching all over for a new job. A 40 hour/week job that pays well with good benefits (yeah, right!) I interviewed for two different jobs and didn't get either one of them. Needless to say, I was disappointed and frustrated with everything. A couple of weeks later, I was promoted to floor manager at one of my jobs. This position gives me a pay raise, more responsibilities and quite a few more hours. Upon leaving my manager's office that day, I realized that Heavenly Father is watching over me. He loves me and knows me and he wants me to develop my talents in the area that I'm in right now instead of starting over with a new job. Sometimes it's so hard to let go and say, "Okay God - I'm leaving it all up to you, please just help me in whatever way you know is right for me." I know that prayers are answered and I'm so thankful for that knowledge.

Other things (and people) I'm loving right now:

Pinterest: I'm addicted. If you don't know what this is, go to www.pinterest.com RIGHT NOW.
Pandora: My favorite channel? Glee Cast Radio. The.Best.Station.Ever.
Pinterest & listening to Pandora = love.
Coupons: Still loving the coupons and the free or really cheap stuff I can get. Such a blessing.
Jackson: Love my baby who is going to be TWO YEARS OLD in just 3 short months.
Davy Crockett: Love that man. He's doing the best he can and stepping up to take care of Jackson when I can't be there.
My new church calling: 2nd Counselor in YW. There is so much potential and talent in our group.
My family:  I hope you know I appreciate you.
My friends: You know who you are and thanks for sticking by me even though I'm almost always unavailable and can't answer the phone.

Am I still going to have bad days? You bet. Do I have to let the bad days cast a shadow over the good days? Absolutely not. I've come to realize that the little things in life mean the most to me. Now, the trick is to always remember that and cherish those little things.

                                                                                                  Something to think about ...